hush

It was that night when I saw a side of you. That, which I never thought I would see. That night of intense grief. Of regret. Of anguish. Of loss.

If only.

Your voice trembled as you told me your story. I kissed your face not hoping to ease the pain. For I know at that minute, nothing can. Every drop of brine that touched my lips pained me. You have always been the strong one. One who always made me feel protected. But not at that moment. As I wiped your tears away, I saw that child in you longing for just one last chance. You hugged me tight like you have never done before. Like never wanting to let go. And for the first time, I felt your vulnerability. Your complete surrender has left me speechless. You are right. You are indeed his boy. And you will always be.

"Lonely looking sky...
Like the free seagull he flies now to where he ought to be.
Home at last."

That night shall forever leave me vivid memories. For it was at that point in our life that I have come to love you more. Being the real man that you are. Know that I will always be beside you. Every step of the way.

The pain shall pass... And life has to go on for those who remain.
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fall

It's weird how seasons bear upon me certain emotions. Like how the thought of autumn bestows melancholy. It is autumn there now. Not here from where I stand. Yet why do I feel its gloominess? Its hue? Is it only because I miss you?

[Autumn in Europe: Photos taken from my Samsung NV10]

...Soon it's winter. But it won't be as cold. No more.